I am doing fine so far on lithium though I did call the doctor a couple days after having racing thoughts again, and he bumped up my dose a notch.

It's a wonderful feeling not to have 20 thoughts or fragments of them in my head all at once. I am now wondering how I managed to do anything for the past 20 years or so. I guess because it started off slowly, I didn't realize it was happening, and then it was happening all the time, so it became normal to me.

I've talked myself out of going shopping many times now. I really need new running shoes, and H said, it's OK, we can afford them even if our month was crazy financially. Today I thought about going, but I'm having some pain, and I decided it would be better to try on new shoes when I can practice a bit of normal walking and jogging in the store with the new shoes before making a purchase. I'll get emails for sales that I normally would open, but now because I don't need anything from the store and/or title of the email, I just delete it.

My memory is actually improved, probably because I am not thinking about so much at once.

I am also off the Clonidine, which made me super forgetful. I had been taking gabapentin for fibromyalgia, but I am not convinced it's doing a thing and might try dropping a pill or two just to see if it makes any difference. I know it makes me a bit tired, but that is all I really can say about it.