Be kind to yourself, @Só leigheas, my Friend! I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY for what you're going through! I TRULY, REALLY AM! Definitely follow @Calla lily12 and @BethRags's Advice. Plese be kind to yourself! You're doing ALL YOU CAN AFTER ALL! Please definitely keep looking for a new Pdoc and a new Psychiatrist and Therapist if you feel like that may help you! YOU DESERVE HELP AND YOU DESERVE AND NEED TO GET BETTER AND TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE DOES, OK? Please be kind to yourself and give yourself some time to elaborate ALL of this and to Grieve your Losses. KEEP FIGHTING, MY AWESOME, DEAR, SWEET AND WONDERFUL FRIEND! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME as usual when you need someone to talk to or vent to or even some Advice and Support! I am SURE plenty of others will be REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY GLAD AND HAPPY TO HELP YOU OUT AS WELL! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Só leigheas, my Friend, your Family, your Friends, Your Psychiatrists, Your Doctors, Your Nurses, Your Pdocs, Your Therapists and ALL of your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?