I can’t afford to live in my apartment any longer. I have to sell it and move into... something else. This mostly comes from my difficulties in getting a steady job after several internships etc.
I have so much anxiety now. It has been such a stressful day, I’ve had a lot of despair, I want to close my eyes and not think about it. I called my therapist and cried my eyes out. She’s gonna help me the best she can.

My therapist told me to look at it as an opportunity for something new to happen, a new start at a new place, away from a lot of bad memories.

I’m just scared and I feel so fragile. My thoughts turn suicidal, the old familiar place to turn to. It feels like a new low. I don’t have much hope left in my life. That’s how I see it.

And I’m so embarrased at my whole situation. I’m too ashamed to open up to people about all this. I feel this is all my fault? How could I let things fall apart like this?

I try to take it one step at a time. I hope to be able to write on this forum about what happens.

Would love to hear encouragment and from people who have been in a similar situation.