Here's some Hugs for you, @MatBell Please be kind to yourself. You're doing NOTHING wrong! Yes, changing House and moving somewhere else is ALWAYS stressful. Do you have ANYONE IRL who can help you out, even economically? Please do reach out for help to ANYONE YOU CAN IF YOU CAN AND WANT TO! Definitely talk to your Therapist about ALL OF THIS and what you're going through, especially emotionally! She's there to help you! Give yourself some time to Grieve your Losses... i am sure you'll come back stronger than ever before! Please remember that NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT OTHER PEOPLE MAY SAY OR MAKE YOU BELIEVE, OK? Hang in there! You're strong! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need advice and support or even simply someone to talk to! I am SURE plenty of others will be REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY GLAD AND HAPPY TO HELP YOU OUT! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @MatBell, and ALL of your Loved Ones! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WISELY AND WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?