I've had 4+ years of stability on my current cocktail and don't want to jeopardize that even tho I also want a break. I know if I quit the AP I'll lose weight and be able to quit the cloister all meds too. But at 60 I hang on to stability and relish the sameness of the days in a way that I didn't when I was younger. What Christina wrote about the hypos was so right on for me, it was a drug that I loved and I was willing to risk the destruction for a couple weeks of glorious color. My baseline is slightly depressed but tolerable.