I never was lucky enough to get a job that lasted 30 years. It just happened that I'd have a job here or there but never for very long. It's a combination of my choices, plus circumstances outside of my control.

Being fired last week derailed my plans to move out and I lost money in the process. When you put a deposit down on a place but cancel, you are charged a break lease fee and you lose your deposit. I'm getting the ole run around from my landlord via his lackey, who emails me "He's out of the country right now" when I ask her when I'll get my rent money back that they legally have to return to me. I can get it back by going to small claims court and will if they string me along more than a couple of weeks.

And I started a temp job today that is another front office type admin role that paid less than the full time job I had for 5 weeks. They are looking for someone to hire full time but needed a temp in the meantime. They couldn't promise me they'd hire me, so all I can control is how well I do while I'm there in a temp capacity. I hope they decide to hire me. But I can't control other people's choices.

I'm going to ask my roommate (the one I posted about here) if I can continue to rent from her throughout the winter until I get my spring graduate school financial aid refund check. So, I've put up with this weirdness from her never leaving her room for 4 months. I think can put up with it for another 3 months, because it would be better than sleeping in my SUV during the winter when it gets to be -35 F outside.

I'm scared to ask her but I have no choice. If she says no, I'll have to find another roommate situation for December 1st.

How many transitions can a person go through, before it becomes too much?!

I'm nearly 50 and this is ridiculous! I just want stability; financial stability, housing stability, social stability.

Why is stability so difficult to obtain? I don't get it!