Your title says it all. Faith is quite complicated. It can also be quite simple. Dualism is so tricky!

I have had my challenges with faith over the years. I was raised under the Baptist faith. I went through a crisis of faith in my early 20s when I realized a lot of what I had been taught no longer added up for me. I went on a mission to find truth. I studied a little bit of everything. My hypothesis was that most faiths and philosophies shared common threads. These threads stood the test of time and brought all methods together despite the differences. These threads spoke to me as truth.

There is a lot of who's God is better arguing to participate in if you are so inclined. All of these God personalities have given many valuable experiences over time. However, it is my belief they all emanante from a common Source. This is the Source of All and there are there are infinite faces. When I pray and ask for support I seek guidance and assistance from those who resonate with my own personal values and intent. I have faith in those who walk a path similar to mine and those who have done it much better than I ever could. Ultimately, I have faith in myself and my own intentions.

Like I said, I studied a little bit of everything. Even those faiths that were opposite to my own energy. When I was in psychosis some very dark energy came forward. I feel like episodes pull things up from deep within your subconscious. It felt like an all out war for my soul was going on. My older brother genuinely believes I was possessed. I feel like my truest self won out in the end, but it was a severe crisis there for a while.

I'm a lot more careful now about how I choose to focus my time spent studying or connecting with spirituality now. Garbage in = garbage out.

ETA: What is 'dark' to me os simply that which feels the opposite of my preferred state of being. That state is someone else's 'Heaven'. I don't judge it, and I have a lot of respect for practices that differ greatly from my own. Life is all about choices and I believe in freedom to choose. I add this to clarify my garbage comment above. One man's trash is another man's treasure.