So glad you made it thru, ChildOfChaos831. Your screen name really says a lot. So hard to live a healthy life when you get off to such a rocky start. I was fortunate to have a stable life til i was eight. My brother-in-law grew up in chaos tho. I know it isn't easy.

Also you have many mental illnesses all clamoring around and colliding and ricocheting. You have a lot to deal with my friend and i hope you can have a calm and restful recovery. I know when i made my suicide attempts i tended to make things worse in the aftermath by panicking and creating additional crises.

That just made it harder to heal, prolonged my suffering. I was my own worst enemy. The drama reigned, the trauma swirled, fight, flight or freeze syndrome was the order of the day. Please resist this dynamic!

Strive to stay calm and peaceful and not make any big decisions or sudden moves. Easier said then done, i know. It takes time to get over a suicide attempt. Be patient and hang in there. You never know when things will start going your way.

The only way to find out is to stick around.