I have an appt with my primary care dr to get my symptoms checked next Tuesday. I know I will have to go for bloodwork. I will be able to do that Saturday, but I’ll have to get up super early so it’s not as crowded. I don’t do well with waiting at the lab.

I am just highly overwhelmed with changing my diet. I have been eating like trash for so long that I don’t know how to go about changing it. One of the problems is I hate to cook so I rely on processed foods that I can cook easily and quickly. Like today we had sloppy joes and instant mashed potatoes. Not the healthiest of dinners. I think I just have to buckle down and cook more. Find fresher meals. I can still make the processed stuff for RS but I don’t have to eat it.

I’m less worried about diabetes because my pdoc said one of the symptoms is losing weight even though you’re eating more and that’s not happening. I am actually gaining weight, of course. I’ve been craving sugar like nobody’s business. Today I had a 450 calorie chocolate chip cookie AND chocolate pudding!

I don’t know. I’m tempted to try weight watchers again because that really teaches you how to make better choices with food. But it costs money that I don’t have. And requires cooking. I have to stop being such a baby about cooking, really, is what it is. I