I long for a time that I will say I am no longer with my abuser. I hear these stories of how spouses get out of the horrible circle of abuse and live a life without the fear of torture. I don't know how anybody gets out of these marriages, how do you survive leaving with children and keep the children happy. I fear my children will hate me, even though they see and hear the horrible things my husband does, they ask me not to divorce him and take them from their home. How does one deal with that and the fear of constant haunting from my husband if I were to take the children and go. I fear I will never get out...