I was telling T some thoughts I've been having around Something.
I have no intention on out then out. I'm afraid I'm cursed with being aware of my positives and my negatives.
Some struggle or are afraid of their shadow side. For me it's in my face. I can't not know any it.
Maribor because my adoptive, psychotic mother would project her fear if her shadow and raise awareness in me of mine. Her wrongly claiming her shadow workings were me! So I'm long accustomed to dreaming with this s**T.

So I'm telling T about some thoughts and asked T if my disclosing them (in not afraid of them) makes her think negatively of me. and T said "No! this isn't bad, it's about being human"

I still struggle on what being human means?
Why would a human be inbuilt to have such thoughts/feelings. (no god lectures please.)

I guess I'm fortunate in being aware of my inner thoughts, that in itself protects me from acting them out from ignorance.

I actually begun discussing this with a work colleague. We've ended up good friends now. With her shutting the office door and discussing her inner demons now too.

It feels so good heading another human apart from T who can be refreshingly honest