I am sorry you are having a very challenging time.
I know it's very difficult while you are going through it. Please try to remember: after the darkness, there is light. I have struggled to believe this at times; yet, I have found it to be true when I hang in and stay open to healing and to change in my life.

Please let us know how you are doing when you can do so?

You are in my thoughts and in my prayers.

Much Love to You!