in the past fourteen years, I've had both medical and vehicle related traumas. (and probably some others) I went thru 8 straight weeks of "h**l" earlier this year - no idea how I survived that/ made it thru, but if I can do that, I can some how manage to find a way thru this now. it may not be the healthiest or best way, but some how some way.

it's just kinda like what happened earlier this year, opened the flood gates so to speak. and the flashbacks 'came alive' again. I'm just not good at any of this - rather prefer to bury things.....