I welcome all input Pseudonym, so thank you. The ironic thing is my husband is bipolar as well, but he is not on any meds and thinks I shouldn't be as well. He just doesn't care the amount of hell he puts the rest of us through when he goes through his mood swings and depressions. We're supposed to just cope with it from him.

I on the other hand am supposed to take care of everything. From my son's schooling (husband is illiterate and not able to do much), to cooking, paying all the bills (worrying about getting them paid and/or making payment arrangements), to doing something simple like reading something to my husband.

I have a huge amount of pressure on me and it is getting worse. Today my T emailed me that he had called my primary doctor and told her not to give me any more meds for awhile - which really ticked me off. I know he did this for my safety, but it still made me angry.

I just know that time is really running short for me lately.

Mary Alice