I love the connection with my therapist although it frequently causes me guilt or shame, and I often feel I am sneaking something from him I don’t deserve. I feel the connection in my body, and not just in my heart and mind, so that has made me feel especially bad, like I am violating him in some way.

However, I have shared my concerns with him, and he always reminds me that all these wonderful feelings belong to me and I am allowed to enjoy them.

I have struggled with intimacy my entire life so to be able allow myself to sink into this delicious warm bath of connection is a gift I am learning to give myself, and without that, for me, none of the other work is really possible.