I terminated with now-ex-t last week because that's all it was anymore, me just wanting that connection, me enjoying being with her. I didn't think any work was getting done there anymore; I'd started doing my work through other methods in late august and was going there and just telling her about it after the fact. And just enjoying talking with her in general. And it became too painful wanting what I can't have of her, because there was no longer that therapeutic benefit making the pain worth it. If any of that makes sense.
I'm looking for a new t now with a different modality so I can get some work done again.