This is one of the issues that are most difficult for me regarding therapy.

When I go to any other doctor, I know what their notes say. It’s what I am there for. It’s the meds I’m on. Info like my height and weight. Nothing else regarding opinions about my personality!

I’m curious what they wrote, but would hate to find out. I fear they tore me apart, like my own worst inner voice might do to myself. Or I wonder if they comment that I am really fairly well. I hated that these notes were kept and a mystery to me.

One psy I saw would say back to me everything I told him. I marveled that he was able to parrot it all back to me and I hated hearing my own drivel! I don’t understand what was the point of that therapy. Like if I said I liked birds. He’d reply, “you sound like a person who likes birds”. This was the whole session. It went nowhere. So I assume his notes read, “She likes birds.” Ugh!

If all these notes from many different therapists, are somewhere in my medical record data base for all doctors to see, yikes! I dread that thought and yet think it’s kind of funny.