I still don't understand how this works with me. I would imagine for the most part, I am really very patient and forgiving and I just don't care what people say. I've been through so much with my illness that nothing anyone else could say to me could ever be as bad as what I've already been through. Words are just a joke compared to what my brain regularly puts me through. But then the other day, a convo I had twenty years ago with an ********* boss just entered my consciousness out of nowhere and I was very quickly extremely angry. It seems like there are certain critical moments in my life when others' words really, really hurt me. And those are the things that have stuck with me, no matter how much time has elapsed. I guess I still have some work to do.