Thank you and apologize if anyone thinks anything but with me trying to just reach out....

Some times the mask and juggling gets to be too much, let alone put any additional stressors on it.

I am fortunate too with being able to work from home in the position I am in now, before when I had to be on site I had many opportunities to be by myself to "get a grip" and adjust the mask if able to.

The last two years or so I've left work to be remote due to something has came up, my small group knows that when I say "I dont feel 100%" it's not due to a cold or flu or something.
**I am fortunate too that a few KNOW either someone close to them or they themselves have " difficult days" let's just say**

I have no doubts that childhood (actually the last pdoc that I saw in 2017 explained to me how the childhood abuse of physical and mental assisted with brain development) and on a better day I could explain myself of points.

Work- they've seen a break down, not at work.. or wait- have they? if I think on this they have... but for sure being mysterious gone a week, close coworker and my mgr know of the severe break down I had.... and yet have kept me... because no one is their diagnoses, saying right?

It's frustrating I suppose too for me... it's confusing to say the least

**I can agree with not being to imagine to have kids, many things touch on that but as I mentioned to one of the few therapists I've seen-- my cat has seen my depression days and my friend has helped me with that.. my cat doesn't deserve that, but a child I couldn't live with myself on it.. I got my cat an automatic feeder which has been great deal of help lately... I haven't been depressed but extremely forgetful and going...

Yes keep trying... keep learning.. sorry for babbling