I don't know what I would be classified as, but I have managed to function to a degree that I can outwardly appear okay to others, and I think even deceive myself a bit. I knew I struggled with depression and anxiety, but told myself if I was doing okay in life that I was fine. Now I am realizing how I had really been going far too long without getting professional help. I do think my ability to override my mental issues enough to function was part of what kept me out of the hospital when I reacted to an SSRI. I think if I hadn't filtered my reactions to continue to be acceptable in society that I would have been either taken off the medication sooner or hospitalized, because I was really not stable and probably a risk to myself. However, I would tell my psychiatrist honestly my symptoms, yet acted calm and composed in his office and so I don't think it conveyed the seriousness of the situation. I recall telling a friend of mine who also has mental illness how bad I felt and he for a while didn't seem to get it, thinking I was stressed because of exams or something. It's challenging because I do feel like I am expected to act like I am totally fine all the time, because I mostly appear it, but often I don't feel it. At the same time I realize I am so fortunate to be in the position I am and not have my life be more affected.