Omg you sound like me. I'm in tears right now. I hope you find some comfort somehow. smells suck for me sometimes, but my biggest trigger is sounds ... music. OMG ... songs! If I hear certain songs I get physically ill and can't skip them fast enough. The mind is a terrible thing sometimes. The sleeping gas at the dentist! BUT they say it has no smell ... BS! Cologne I bet would trigger me too. My neighbor recently died of brain cancer and she could only listen to "music without words". I guess the lyrics messed up her brain even more ... kind of short circuited it. With my MS I'm finding I have the same issue. I can only listen to music with words when I am in the right mood otherwise I listen to reiki or yoga channels on spotify.

We just had to put one dog to sleep that had cancer and my remaining little girl has congestive heart failure and keeps me scared everyday. I'm so afraid I won't be able to handle it when she has a fatal attack. Jilly, my little dog, coughs a lot and I am constantly listening so I can go help her if she needs me. Must be part of my triggering thing. I'll be so grateful to never hear a dog cough again. I know that sounds shallow, but OMG it's gut wrenching to hear that coming from my baby girl and I can't fix her!

Blknblu I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved doggies ... I know exactly how hard that is. Dogs give sooooo much love. Love that is so tangible and enough to fill a room. When they leave it leaves such a big hole in our hearts. I hope your pain eases over all of your traumas.