Speaking of wanting to feel the connection. There were several times when I was so deep in the longing for her between sessions - even though my sessions were on Thursday afternoon at 4:30 for quite awhile there - it would be Thursday after lunch and I just couldn't wait another dang minute and I would text her and say "4:30 today, right?" or something else lame like that just so she'd respond and I'd have that little spark of connection. I was so embarrassed about doing that yet it was like I had to. she knew why i'd do it, too, and would say so, which made it feel even more embarrassing.