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Originally Posted by ArtieSwimsOn
Speaking of wanting to feel the connection. There were several times when I was so deep in the longing for her between sessions - even though my sessions were on Thursday afternoon at 4:30 for quite awhile there - it would be Thursday after lunch and I just couldn't wait another dang minute and I would text her and say "4:30 today, right?" or something else lame like that just so she'd respond and I'd have that little spark of connection. I was so embarrassed about doing that yet it was like I had to. she knew why i'd do it, too, and would say so, which made it feel even more embarrassing.
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I have my own version of this. My toughest time tends to be over the weekend, but he doesn’t respond over the weekend, so I will sometimes find a reason to email Sun night or Mon morning knowing I can get a response from him on Mon morning. Typically his response is short and generic with the first sentence referencing something I said in my email and the second sentence saying he’s looking forward to seeing me later in the week. I sometimes feel lame that I do that, and also because it somehow makes me feel better. I’m actually a fully functioning adult, so wanting this can feel wrong and weird. But I do it anyway.