I don't have issues with feeling the connection in session. However, I have major issues with object consistency, so I easily lose that feeling of connection in between sessions. There are some things that T and L have done to try to help with that. I can email in between sessions. T gave me a rock and a stuffed animal as transitional objects, she wrote facts in my journal (i.e. she cares, she's not going to abandon me, etc.), she left me a voicemail, and I have countless emails from her. L has given me a magnet and a scarf as a transitional object, she also wrote facts in my journal, and I have countless emails from her as well. I've also asked L for a bracelet, a rock, and a voicemail. She said over time she'll give them to me.

Right now I'm not struggling too bad with my connection with L especially since I'm seeing her twice a week and get to email in between. I am, however, having a hard time with my connection to T. But it's been 7 months without her, so I guess that would be expected? I'm curious to see if the connection comes back when I see her in 1.5 weeks.

Eta: T came up with this idea: to email her asking if she's still there. That way I could reconnect with her, and she'd only have to give a quick response. L allows me to do the same.