Hey @ StreetcarBlanche
I know they say the 7 year itch is a marriage term but I look at it more generally. I believe we can change every few years and I do not always think its bad. 7 years ago I was an active alcoholic and a selfish asshole and I promise you I am not the same person. Here I am, 44 with an English Lit degree that I have literally never been employed with. I had three kids lost my mind and went on disability. Everytime I think I can finally do something for me- some crap derails it-most recently rotator cuff surgeries. My daughter ran away and I enrolled in an intro required online class for pre-teaching certification and lost the 250$ because I couldnt get it together. Last May I started the process for substitute teaching and had the first shoulder done. We started to remodel a room and everything in the house seemed to break one after the other. I do not choose to look at it as bad luck or some punishment or that I did something- its just the path I am on now and I accept it. Acceptance is key. I hate it but if its eventual I practice accepting it. You seem like a great person who has been dicked around way to much. You are willing to be self introspective and learn from mistakes and be accountable. I do not know what is wrong with people. So fake it til you make it girl. If they want someone to do certain things without any changes a certain way even if its dumb- do it, smile and do it. Even when you and anyone with a brain knows it would be better another way- F it. Just play the game as if you are the star player and love every second of it. Hopefully this pans out for you into a FT postion that you can actually contribute to the business with your skills.
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