L, I wish I had asked you to write something for me that I could keep. I miss you; I guess this is to be expected. You were such a big part of my life for a long time. But I have no regrets about leaving; I did what I had to do. I absolutely don't regret that last pathetically emotional email I wrote to you either, because I did send that, you called the next day and we scheduled that final session. Without that final session, I would have had no closure and would likely still be miserable now and would have had to find a new t right away to deal with that misery i'd felt after the disaster session. I'm still going to find a new t, but after I take some time off from therapy to pursue other avenues of self care. Missing you now is a thing, yes, but it's not overwhelming, I'm not crying over it, I'm living my life and doing my best to let myself feel it as it comes and ride it out. Today and tomorrow all day is the workshop so that's probably what spurred the missing you; cuz you told me about it in the first place and said that you've attended it in the past and know the facilitator. So it's a connection to you in a way. I'm nervous about going but excited at the same time. I wanted to go last year but I was too chicken to!!