My doctor likes me and that's reflected in the notes. I think a lot of doctors and health professionals fear working with me at first, "deaf bipolar", then they get to know me and I'm easy to work with they are relieved. I remember decades ago, back in the 80's I demanded to see my notes from inpatient. The doc was worried about it but they were just disappointing. Can't remember what they said but they were boring. To me my hospitalizations were dramatic and event filled, to them I was just another tramia patient.