I’ve been a closet alcoholic and have not gotten help yet. It’s in my genes. This is the first time I’ve admitted that to anyone. I’ve struggled with anxiety and other issues and drinking helps me cope. It’s gotten pretty bad more recently. There have been cases when my husband gets upset with my social drinking. I didn’t know he knew as much as he did until today. I thought, for the most part, I have been good at hiding it. I know I need help. I don’t know that a 12 step program is for me. I don’t know where to start. I don’t want to lose my marriage. I don’t even know what I am asking here. I just don’t know where to start. Guess I just need support or advice. My marriage is in big trouble.