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I just had to leave the workforce and now
live mostly on SSDI and little freelance copy editing because my job was too draining. I worked four days a week, and the other three I would lie on the couch doing nothing. staring into space. I would almost cry on Sunday nights because I had to go back the next morning.
I had coworkers whom I overheard talking behind my back. I have tried over the years to adopt this attitude: "they don't have to like you, and you don't have to care. Other people think about us less than we sometimes imagine. It is hard not to take negative interactions and awkward conversations and blow them up into big events. The other person may not even remember them the next day.
I think you are being way too hard on yourself. It sounds as if you are, like me. an introvert. There's nothing wrong with that. The problem is not you; it is the situation. Your current job does not give you the space and privacy you need. You deserve to have your psychological needs--and everyone's are different--met. I know changing jobs might not be possible right now, but I hope you will plan to do so when you can.
I am really sorry that you're feeling this way. I know how it is to come home from work every day and wish you never had to go back. It's a nightmare.[/QUOTE][/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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