So sorry to hear. In many ways I’m in the same situation, same age etc. I feel like giving up too very often because it’s just too hard for me.

I hope you have brief moments of feeling good and look forward to them. Have a small thing every day to look forward to.

My future is also very uncertain so I have a lot of anxiety too. I try to have faith that things will work out somehow, even if I can’t see it myself right now. I’m trying the best I can to do this.
I hope you can too.