I am so sorry you are struggling so right now. It sounds really, really difficult. I was wondering. Do you happen to have a therapist or a psychiatrist by any chance?

As others have said, don't give up. You have the rest of a long and awesome life ahead of you. Things will get better. You just have to sort some things out. And we will be here for you.

Hang in there. Keep pushing forward. Life is filled with challenges for all kinds of people, not just you. Everyone here at PC has challenges they are dealing with. We help each other. You will handle this autoimmune thing, whatever it is. Just don't give up.