Thank you all - I'm not sure if I have my answer (Not sure I even know what my question really was), but I'm glad some of us are on the same page.
I don't believe people are out to get me, but I almost get BPD thinking, where I feel people no longer care about me, especially if they don't get in touch with me. Instead if realising they have their own lives. And probably aren't aware just how much they mean time. It's when reasoning is anything but logical.