lol that's what my t said tonight... when he looked at my chart and saw that i had a lot of really hard days... this past week... but didn't cut... he wanted to know why???? i told him i couldn't... because if i had... i didn't know if i could stop... that i had hit that really dark place... i am suppose to call him tomorrow... and he is going to my son's wedding on sunday... so i guess i can't hide...lyn