I want to make another comment. I am now a professional musician. Mental illness need not stop you from pursuing music. It makes things harder, but doesn't it make anybody's life harder? That student who developed schizophrenia doesn't show that people with mental illness can't go into music, and it certainly doesn't show that music caused his illness. I know you are scared, but you don't have to give up on your dream. In fact, it's better if you don't give up on your dream.

I have issues with physical injury, so I've had to stop playing a couple of times. Each time I do, my mental health suffers. Music is healing, not triggering. Without it I feel lost. I don't agree with music causing mental illness AT ALL. If anything, it helps heal mental illness. I could play music at the worst of times and it helped. Dare to dream and follow your dream. It will pay off eventually; it certainly did for me.