It's been going on so long, for at least a few months. I get extremely upset over minor things, then I get a feeling of absolute dread, depression, self-hatred or anxiety and I am unable to calm myself down; the upsetting thing becomes the sole focus of my mind and I block everything else out. I do not deal with stress. At all. I'm a wreck!

Sometimes, things that most people would simply get a little down about make me feel suicidal (passively or actively). I KNOW this isn't normal or healthy.

I've told my mom about my mood swings, and she said my feelings were normal, but she doesn't know I self-harm sometimes to cope with it. I don't want to freak her out.