I am SO SORRY things are being SO HARD for you!! My advice would be to talk to your Parents about ALL of this. I COMPLETELY understand your fears but please give it a try. It is good that you've already told her something at least! I'd say keep sharing little things with her, starting from the lighter ones. You'll have more confidence as you see Her listening to you and Accept you and your own Struggles, as well. Then you can start with telling her the heavier stuff. What do you think? May that help you even just a little bit? Please give it a thought! Try to talk about ALL of this with your School Counselor as well! They're there to help you after all! Give it a try! We are here for you as well! You can PM me ANYTIME and many others as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Bookworm257, your Family, your Friends, your Therapists, your School Counselor, your Relatives, your Doctors, your Pdocs and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens!!