Yes, I understand why that'd make you feel upset. I am not sure what you wrote exactly, but as long as it wasn't anything too "private!, lke your mentioning suicidal thoughts r something like that, I don't think you should have any problem at all. I'd suggest to wait untile they bring it up. If they don't, that's better for you, right? Try not to worry too much. They're there to help you and NOT judge you. Also, I am SO SORRY for the Loss of your Friend! Take your time to Grieve your Loss, ok? Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @jrae, your Family, your Friends, your Therapists, your Pdocs, your Doctors and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens!