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Oct 28, 2019, 02:15 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2019
Location: You'll never know
Posts: 940
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Originally Posted by Amyjay
Ho yeah. Not necessarily with posts, because I tend not to write much about my own stuff, but certainly with the journal. Last therapy session we tried to ground ourselves first by reading the latest entries, and instead was triggered into an alter who denies anything happened and has no desire at all to be in therapy. It didn't work out so well for us!
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@Amyjay (((safe hugs))) I'm sorry you deal with that, too. Journaling was so hard for me that I stopped. And then, I get back online and I was using it kind of like a journal, with my different parts posting as well. I didn't realize how much of what I was posting or responding to in posts were triggering me. It was me triggering me.
I hope your T sessions go better, for you and your system. I get those sessions sometimes. One time, I did dissociate and lose time during "brainspotting," and my T at the VA told me that I flung the headphones to the ground. I don't remember that at all. I actually thought my T was lying. All I remember feeling right before I lost time was this sense of the room spinning and a bunch of yucky memories flooding in. I think I have a part I don't know about, or at least not fully. I'm afraid if that is the case, but I'm also open to welcoming her or him. Whenever that part is around, I can feel it, and I think she/he is scared to say a lot of things, too.
There are fragments who, along with me, just want to deny everything and work on "simple" stuff. Only, the stuff I work on in session is never that simple, and those things always lead to the stuff I dont want to talk about. It's hard to ground when I feel that way.
I hope you and your system can feel safe and grounded while in session.
(((safe hugs))) 
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