Hi Mary Alice,

I'm so sorry you have the burdens of your household, the income, and your illness to contend with besides your husbands non-cooperative attitudes as well.

It might be fear of change, and your recovering and feeling better, that holds him back from supporting you.

There is a saying about dealing with the devil you know - meaning things as they are - rather than how you will be when you are stronger, and healthier.

I would hope you do follow your doctors advice as your husband is ill and untreated, not exactly in any position to offer advice, let alone demand anything from you.

If you can secure your children with a loved one, (please do not leave them alone with husband if you enter hospital stay) you can enter the hospital, get on the right medication, have some time to decompress, and hopefully see things clearly about what to do next.

I know it has to be difficult. I suffer with depression and anxiety and there are days I can't get out of bed either, but you are suffering so much right now, you really would be better off getting to a healing phase and seeking the docs treatment so you can cope and feel better.

Hope you don't mind the things I've said. They were my heartfelt thoughts. I only mean to help. Take care Mary Alice - you are an important person to your family and everyone who cares.