Well old boss said they are hiring for my old position. im disappointed but expected a no deep down. so im trying to get into my new job as best I can. its hard to get any hours though and im really struggling financially even with SSDI. -sigh- im looking into other PSS jobs but no luck. im really struggling this week. im gonna ask pdoc for an anxiety prn tomorrow. hopefully Ativan as hes given that to me before and it helps just enough.

I did however get my college transcripts sent in. looks like most the classes ive taken will go towards my degree somehow. even my child development associate classes count as social sciences. hopefully. thatd be great huh? I wont count on it though.

im still not sleeping much. I had two good nights. I was up most of the night last night.

I just need chai and a good book. both I have. that's how is pending tonight. harry potter and chai.