So for the most part this doesn't sound that bad and I think it was my adult self choice because I was getting over a 5 year relationship. However the loniliness of being single is starting to sink in and get to me. Not least the intimacy, but things like touch. I go weeks and sometimes months with hugging people let alone sex. I feel like my body misses it a great deal. The year and a half wouldn't worry be, but I have always found it hard to start relationships. My last one was my first and it lasted 5 years, but now I am 30 and meeting people seems harder as everyone is coupled of. I am not great at socialising and meeting people. I mean I am friendly but I will never go to events on my own and mingle. Dating apps are fine, but they never come to anything and I am not the person people swipe right for. I have tried to get comfortable on my own. For the most part I have enjoyed it, but I just want company and intimacy and to settle down.

This together with my poor attachment just leaves me feeling i'll be alone and that is it.