sexual abuse is something that is meant to be the explanation for whatever ails ya. turns an ununderstandable distress into something understandable. the only answer, the only explanation really.

that is the message we get from society.

then we wonder about things that happened in the past like this and wonder... and wonder...

is it a deer?
is it a deer?
is it a deer?

till we shoot our best friend (or some kid) in the neon jacket...

sexual play is a NORMAL PART OF DEVELOPMENT. horses do it, monkeys do it, humans do it too. hell, if you didn't have sexual experiences as a part of your development: YOU WOULD BE A FREAK. THERE WOULD BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU.

Maybe you didn't feel 100% comfortable. Did you feel 100% comfortable playing all those other kindsa games kids play? Tin can where you had to kiss... Whatever the games were that you played as kids... How much social pressure was involved in a lot of that? How much curiosity? How much ambivalence?

How many gaps in your memory do you have for other games that you used to play?

Why is this one meant to be so special.

Oh yeah... Sexual abuse... The answer to everything...