Welcome Phoenix.

You are in the right place! You will find a wonderful, loving, supportive group here.

I, too, have suffered (and suffered is the operative word) from depression my whole life.

What has helped me:
Meds
Therapy
The Forums
Prayer

Doesn't mean every day is Up, but things have gotten better than how they are at the worst. Could be we have to accept that we will cycle in and out of D. Just try to get the bottoms not to low.

Best wishes for your own recovery.