@bpcyclist I just recently started seeing a pdoc. Last week was only my 2nd meeting. We started off on a low dose of a mood stabilizer and have slowly increased it. I have just recently realized one of the side effects was increased anxiety. So to counter that I'm taking it right before I goto bed and it seems to be helping. So I guess I say all of that to say my medication is a slow work in progress.
The fact that I'm seeing a PDoc is a massive step because due to past events (some of which you are aware of) I really don't trust doctors. Seems like I can trust my pdoc with my meds but as of now that's all I trust her with.