Here's the link to Smart Recovery: Self Help Addiction Recovery Program | Alternative to AA - SMART Recovery

I encourage you to remember you will get great advice and not so great advice. As you get better, you learn to distinguish between the two and think for yourself. That is one reason I am not in favor of AA. They want you to think you are powerless over your disease. You are most definitely NOT powerless over your disease. You can learn new habits, if you choose to, and better yourself and better your life. That choice is yours to make.

Do you have a therapist? A good therapist will help you untangle your thoughts and get better.