Yeah for me it’s like a badge too. I also sometimes feel like I just don’t need to eat that much and that my hunger signals get broken sometimes so I don’t actually feel hunger. It’s not that I’m really really hungry and telling myself no. I am just literally not hungry for hours on end sometimes and when I do eat the smallest things can really fill me up. But for sure I am obsessed with numbers and calorie counting. I didn’t mention any of this to my therapist when I saw her on Monday so I don’t know what that means if anything. But whatever.