@Deilla

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this bad. Don’t forget that things often feel worse before they feel better. Can you think of times in your life that this was true? I can think of plenty of times in my life when I thought I had hit rock bottom and wonderful things came along that I never imagined would. Life is hard but life is also beautiful sometimes too. Keep reaching out to your mom and also anyone else you can. Do you have access to a counselor?