I have been on and off Xanax or Valium mostly daily for at least 10 years. My Pdoc and T both agree that the amount of ptsd ,BP, ocd and chronic pain.

I understand the risk of long use, dependency, “
possible”’early dementia etc etc etc

My opinion with T and Pdoc all feel that if I’m always on edge and near panic that it’s better for me right now and safer ( suicide wise) to take them, being in constant anxiety is unhealthy , lots of anxiety is from chronic pain .... mostly I just take one at night.

Today I took one before we drove up to see the GI doctor.

I knew benzo bashing was going to follow the opioid epidemic. I’d like the government to find out how awful it is for psych patients to not only find help but afford medication and for gods sake ! Big pharma can make a Med that’s weight neutral but they also make tons of meds to treat obesity so they want to make sure they make billions on all those meds too .

I hate Big Pharma !
#endrant