I have been bouncing a lot between being okay and crying lately. I made an appointment to see my p-doc on Thursday. That is the earliest she could get me in. Been having thoughts of death the past few days on and off. I was told if I get any worse to go to the ER. I have music playing and I am trying to stay positive. This is hard. I have been sleeping 12+ hours a day and have really no appetite. Crying on and off and feeling miserable. Winter is gonna be tough.