I don’t have chronic pain issues but I get the emotional ones. I mourn my lost childhood. It’s undoubtedly made my mental illness worse. Thanks ptsd. I try not to but I really wish I could be the care free person I was before my abuser came along. As for working...I wish I still could work full time. I get very overwhelmed working part time but I try to keep
It to myself. This job right now is killing my stability. It’s like I never get ahead.

I’m always in the back. Yes I’m going to try school again but part of me doesn’t expect I’ll make it. Just being realistic.

I also grieve my skinny half way decent looking self. I’ve become fat, ugly and dumb.